Been absent for a whole week. Life feels like it's flying by right now and I am clawing to attempt to keep up. Will try to do better with the updates (and there sure are a lot of them...pictures are loaded, just need to write and post.)
I had a wake-up-call kind of morning with the realization that it's March. March 2012. We're moving in 3 months. It's not like, "Oh we're moving to who knows where in a semi-long span of time from now"; it's more of a "It's March and we need to anticipate moving in June (maybe earlier) and finish the house and put it on the market and quit my job and move Who Knows Where Still and", well, realizing it was March was a little overwhelming this morning.
My stress is out of control. Out of the blue I'll just start crying, or I'll just get so uncontrollably angry. It's like I'm PMS'ing 24/7, which just isn't fun for anyone...myself included. While most of the the stress is self-induced, I feel that it's legitimate; it's not like I'm being a drama-queened fire breathing dragon for no reason. There's a lot of impending instability, a lot of questions that still aren't answered, and a lot of conflicting emotions about my future.
In doing what I've become good at here recently, figuring out things to mentally escape from my stress, I wandered through Pinterest-land earlier. I stumbled upon a blog with a relatively simple list of 30 Questions. Some were silly and fun, while others I sat there a little dumb-founded and then a bit annoyed with myself that I couldn't answer it. Some of these are going to make me really have to think. Re-evaluate. Re-align. I think that would be very useful right now, and it's a productive mental escape if nothing else. So, amongst the house updates and book posts and the snippets of life, I'm going to spend March answering 30 questions. I'm not holding myself to these 30 questions, especially if any of them start to make my emotional pot boil over with questions I'm struggling with in life in general. So if there's ever a day that the question is more along the lines of "What do you want to name your next pet?", take it as a sign to let the former question lie low for a while. Feel free to join in at any point.
Here's the list:
1. List 20 random facts about yourself.
2. Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.
3. Describe your relationship with your parents.
4. List 10 things you would tell your 16 year-old self, if you could.
5. What are the 5 things that make you most happy right now?
6. What is the hardest thing you have ever experienced?
7. What is your dream job, and why?
8. What are 5 passions you have?
9. List 10 people who have influenced you and describe how.
10. Describe your most embarrassing moment.
11. Describe 10 pet peeves you have.
12. Describe a typical day in your current life.
13. Describe 5 weaknesses you have.
14. Describe 5 strengths you have.
15. If you were an animal, what would you be and why?
16. What are your 5 greatest accomplishments?
17. What is the thing you most wish you were great at?
18. What has been the most difficult thing you have had to forgive?
19. If you could live anywhere, where would it be and why?
20. Describe 3 significant memories from your childhood.
21. If you could have one superpower, what would it be and what would you do with it first?
22. Where do you see yourself in 5 years? 10 years? 15 years?
23. List your top 5 hobbies and why you love them.
24. Describe your family dynamic of your childhood vs. your family dynamic now.
25. If you could have dinner with anyone in history, who would it be and what would you eat?
26. What popular notion do you think the world has most wrong?
27. What is your favorite part of your body and why?
28. What is your love language?
29. What do you think people misunderstand most about you?
30. List 10 things you would hope you would be remembered for.